Flowering Nightmares

It's been awhile

2011-11-14T18:14:00.001+08:00

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2011-06-15T09:54:00.001+08:00

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2011-06-15T02:13:00.002+08:00

BULLSHITTING ME.

Eat go own words boy. If you wanna play games play it right then.

Immature.

Lies.

Tricks up my sleeve.

Let's see your true mafucking colors.

Told ya before once you start the game, you have to end it well.

2011-05-30T11:21:00.002+08:00

I'll give you a sad face :( cause that's how I feel right now. My bestfriend thinks Im an ass. But what to do. My friend thinks that I just come and go same goes to my best friend. Haish. BIG SIGH. I wokeup feeling crappy as hell. It's a monday plus all the shits that I receive. I can't blame anyone for it. Shed some tears. Come on! I'm a girl. Perangai sensitive. Haiya..... I don't know what to do.

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2011-05-24T09:00:00.001+08:00

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2011-05-12T11:42:00.000+08:00

Had a great time with gf Hawa. Missed her soo much. We will meet like every few months.
I'm not a sociable person. hahah.

- I want Butter scotch ice cream at Fat cow!!! I need a scoop!! PBG! I can simply walk from my hse to Fat cow but I don't want!! Hahaha. Fat Cow come to me...

- I finished reading Absolute Boyfriend. I love Manga!

- I WANT KOBRA KID(MIKEY WAY) JACKET!!!! USD $99.99!!! WTF!!! I'M GONNA BUY/BEG SOMEONE TO BUY FOR ME !! SOMEONE GIMME THIS JACKET AS BDAY PRESENT PLS!!!

- I LOVE MIKEY!! MIKEY WAY!! OBSESSION..

- I neglected my digi cam cause used to using canon. I PREFER GOOD QUALITY PICTURES! I wanna buy new digi cam.

- Playing my ds again. It's fun! Need to buy new games. IDK HOW TO DOWNLOAD DS GAMES. I SUCK AT ELECTRONIC STUFF.

- I HAVE NO MORE DEBTS ON MY ONLINE SHOPPING ADDICTION. HEHEH.

- Momma bought Coach wristlet! Not fair!

- I want a pair of Mary Jane's

- Or new Timberland Boots I love TIMBERLAND'S BOOTS!!!

- CB PERFORM IS SG LA!!! I WILL SURELY BUY THE FRONT ROW TIX JUST TO SEE CB!

Thats all for now

2011-05-09T17:52:00.002+08:00

It's nice to hear my bestman friend on the phone but it was 5 AM IN THE MORNING. Like I say "Org giler aje lepak pukul 5 pagi".

Aniways...this blog has been abandon as I suck at updating. I prefer Tumblr. Hahaha.

Let's put the Random facts out:

- I like boys.

- I'm still a fat Cat.

- I miss "Girl time".

- I want to have a stalker.

- I want a lil drama in life. hahaha

- I still love my job.

- When I'm rich I want a yellow Lamborghini, Then sing "Look at me now" by CB.

- I want Mikey way or CB or BOTH. hahah

- I love Fat Cow butter scotch ice-cream. Someone by me a tub pls?!

NOTE: NOT ALL THE RANDOM FACTS ARE TRUE. GO FIGURE.

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2011-05-04T13:30:00.001+08:00

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2011-05-01T23:30:00.001+08:00

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2011-04-25T21:15:00.000+08:00

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2011-04-25T09:21:00.001+08:00

New Zealand

Ask me anything

2011-04-22T00:29:00.002+08:00

I live in fear of darkness.
I have had my fair share of heartbreaks.
I feel all grown up today as I was quite calm by the situation given.
I feel numb for an hour.
I skip lunch.
I hate myself. Who doesn't
I love cats.
I have imperfections.
I love my bf which He hates me now.
I'm egoistic.
I never kissed a girl before.

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2011-04-22T00:27:00.000+08:00

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2011-04-20T22:33:00.000+08:00

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2011-04-14T15:26:00.000+08:00

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2011-04-13T17:57:00.001+08:00

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2011-04-13T17:56:00.001+08:00

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2011-04-11T11:06:00.001+08:00

I am in deep shit. I just had to think about him. Stupid medications.

People might say don't kiss and tell but maybe I will tell.

2011-04-10T02:00:00.001+08:00

I miss you always.

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2011-04-08T09:02:00.001+08:00

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2011-04-05T11:48:00.001+08:00

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2011-04-01T22:44:00.001+08:00

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2011-04-01T18:18:00.002+08:00

Make some effort.

I'm at the library trying to make peace with my mind here. If been off lately. I miss my alone time just gazing or just reading a book. Doodling on my notebook. I miss that. While on leave I'm doing something productive. I regret not bringing my camera. Shucks. But it's okay.

2011-03-11T11:08:00.002+08:00

Tell me how am I suppose to be mad when you know how to make me happy again instantly. It's unfair. It's just so unfair.

You think I was okay after you told me the truth, you think after you made me forget about that moment that you can escape that lie. Fuck you!

Just Fuck you!

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Tell me what do you see when you look into the mirror.

I know that you're a self centered person.
Liar.
Actor, oh you act soo soo well.
A lover.

You know what it doesn't matter to you cause you're just being yourself.

Enough clowning around. The King can #makeitevenbetter. Visit to redeem a coupon for a $1 Tendergrill #BurgerKing

2011-03-08T17:16:00.000+08:00

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2011-03-07T09:55:00.002+08:00

I wish I could just type in here. & who ever reads it will know.
We live in secrets and lies.

2011-03-05T01:42:00.000+08:00

Its all in my head.

I wanna put it down but it's impossible.

2011-03-01T17:16:00.002+08:00

Lets just pretend.

Pretend to love someone for a week then breakup with them for another. But within a week many promises has been made like "I will love you forever". Fuck you. That was a lie.

So the guy sings Bruno Mars "Grenade". I feel ya.

What a pity young love. Well the guy was younger than the girl. I pity the guy.

The girl hasn't change her ways. She's still the same when she was 13.

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Don't be popular for the wrong reasons.

Try telling my sister that. I bet you 20 bucks she would say " what reasons? Idk them."

Pfft.

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Oh ya, my mum called me a fat-ass. THANKS ALOT!

I can't be a skinny bitch like your other daughters.

Maybe one day I'll die because I'm thin then you'll be happy.

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& Yeah because I'm fucking FAT. My fucking uncle indirectly says that I'm pregnant.

Fucking asshole.
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So I'll pretend nothing has happened. I'll pretend I didn't cry like a baby by myself. I'll pretend I didn't bother about my weight. I'll pretend that my mum actually love me for who I am. I'll pretend that.... and the list goes on......

I'm pretending I sound like a fucking emo kid.

2011-02-24T14:19:00.002+08:00

As I was reading Wattpad about love,betrayal & back stabbing. I must admit I've done it before. It was just like a game to everyone until 1 of us falls for the other. It WAS fun while it last. Hahah. There's a hate/love feeling to the game. When you're in the only way out is to hurt an innocent soul.

2011-02-15T17:30:00.002+08:00

Wassup mafcuker!

Nah jk. Did I mention I had the most boring and suey-est weekend ever!
That car is jinxed/cursed! Stupid car. In total damage is like more than $500. Stupid car. NBCCB! You ruined my weekend.

I don't want to elaborate on the details.

Money has always been an issue but now its not as 'painful' as it was like 10 months back. We learn to share as always and understand more.

I wanna go for a holiday...Mum please lets go langkawi like you said.

Can't wait to play #WhatsYourTalent to find out cool stuff abt infocomm careers! Plus highest scorer wins Xbox & Kinect!

2011-02-14T13:33:00.000+08:00

Can't wait to play #WhatsYourTalent to find out cool stuff abt infocomm careers! Plus highest scorer wins Xbox & Kinect!

2011-02-01T17:43:00.002+08:00

Seeing in person, I wanted to say I'm sorry. I don't know why I wanted to apologize to you. I guess I have been a bitch you. I've known you for 5 years on and off. But I didn't actually got a chance to know you as a person individually. You said it was fate that You saw me after 3 years but for me it's just luck. I'm sorry. You're a weird friend. Weird,shy, nice but yet people mistook you as an emo dude. Haha. I was partly glad and unhappy that I saw you on the bus this morning.

2011-02-01T17:38:00.002+08:00

The one that I told secrets to.
The one that wake me up if I fall asleep in class.
The one that help me if I need advice.
The one that care and listen when I have problems.
The one that knows me well enough.
The one that encourage me to study.
The one that I fell for 4 years ago.

I fell for my secret best friend.

Past

2011-01-05T14:03:00.003+08:00

What if the past just walk by you.
What if at that moment it caught you off guard.
what if you feel numb when it happens.
what if things was just normal when it happen.
So what if..

Well..Those 'What ifs' is left hanging. It will stay that way.

2010 was a year which I didn't want to repeat again. But it got me to where I am today. Next month will be my 1 year anniversary working for this wonderful company. & I'm still the only malay girl here. Had tamed myself with clubs & alcohol. I've been a very good daughter and I succeed in my love life. Well half way to it. My hardwork payed off with tears, $$ and moments that I wouldn't forget.

2011 will be a good year. Well I hope so.

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2010-12-14T18:06:00.001+08:00

Wassup,

lately its been womderful. Which is good.

I wanna buy a pair of Emerica. I saw this super cute pair over at KL! Hehehe. I f pay is in early I'll go and buy over there. But I need to change my card to GO! Card so its easier.

2010-12-08T11:38:00.002+08:00

Soo..Updates..

I got engaged... NOT YET..We change to maybe next yr Nov instead.
Love passed his Class 3 driving license.
I had my tongue re-pierce again...NOT..I took it out 2 years ago..
I miss a redbull & vodka.
I'm going KL on Christmas for the weekend.
I miss Dblo. hahah.
I seriously can't wait for my bonus. Yey!
My hp suck!
Them boys & me when to lots of places over the weekend. Rent a car again! heheh.
& I'm fat.

2010-11-17T13:52:00.000+08:00

You the fucking best.

2010-11-03T15:28:00.003+08:00

You are the only exception.
They say never to fall but I did, So when you get hurt no one but yourself can make it better again.
Every drop is equal to how much hurt its causing.
Every curse tells me how much I love that person even though his an ass.
Every step away from you is like losing my other half.

Tell me is it worth it?

Remember change is for the better not for the worst.

December is near.

2010-10-26T09:33:00.002+08:00

We decided to reset the date instead.

I wanted to continue my studies next year and Schsch wants to do what he has to do. I'm proud that he decided to _____ all those _______ .
Heh.

December Kollahs are planning a trip to KL. Yey! Maybe visit abg Joe.

I wanna go ZoukOut. Schsch and I was like Tiesto coming to sg! *excited mode*

Oouh ya, I have allergies now. Stupid nose.

2010-10-08T11:24:00.002+08:00

I miss spending friday nights with Schsch.
I miss our 4am breakfast.
I miss late night walks.
I miss our random coffee session.
I miss eating Qiji with you.
& I know you miss Atok cat plus please you can't have tiddycat. heh.
Love your one & only princess.

2010-10-03T22:08:00.001+08:00

I love Muhammad bin Abdullah.
He's been a good friend and boyfriend plus lover.
The future is in our hands.
With a ring.....

2010-09-30T15:18:00.002+08:00

I wish I was back in sec sch in Mrs Jane Cheng class.

Odd? I know.

My flowering Nightmare.....

2010-09-29T11:11:00.002+08:00

I miss hanging out with friends. I miss sheesha. I miss the old us, bff & Gfs.

I miss long bus ride alone with my ears plug with music.

I miss day-dreaming about random stuff.

I miss being alone. I think*

I miss the care free feeling I had once.

I miss you & again I miss us.

Time will tell.

2010-09-27T09:09:00.002+08:00

Psst...

Nothing is impossible unless you give up.

What's up?

2010-09-24T14:20:00.002+08:00

Silence. To keep in silence from the world.

Letting out emotions maybe a mistake at times. So I would rather be in silence.

Here's what I need:

2 boxes of Next Menthol sub zero

A Couple pairs of ears

& some comfort food.

Thank You.

So BestF, Hows life in camp? Good? Hope you're doing fine.

2010-09-21T10:50:00.002+08:00

Being away from reality is when I'm asleep. Dreams are peaceful and I feel calm and secure. The world is a cruel place to be but we're in it to live our life to the fullest. Pain is inevitable to me and others, well I believe in that. Friends,lovers even family come and go. We will die one day. So I'm making the best of it right now. Not living my life to the fullest but living it step by step. Steps to be a better person, better daughter, better friend & better lover which is impossible for me. I mostly suck at everything I do. I never knew that a person could really keep to his own words. Now I know its possible. I believe we deserve 3 chances in everything we do. 1st strike, 2nd strike & then 3rd strike you're out of your own field. At the end of the day it's a hard life. You curse, swear and say "FUCK MY LIFE" but its still your choice to change and make it better. Here am I trying to let out anger, disappointment, fear and pain. I mean Fuck Life. Thats all.

2010-09-03T13:36:00.002+08:00

Hold on tight.

Certain things are just better kept as a secret.

I hate how things are at times.

2010-09-02T08:59:00.001+08:00

So to say, I never wanted this.
This is what I'm afraid of.
Take me far away from reality.
Where's the pillar of strength when I needed it.

2010-09-01T15:49:00.002+08:00

Those random things that pop out on my mind when I'm on the home. I love train rides. I tend to observe alot of things basically people. Those face. Tired,stress and happy expressions. I thought of days and countless hours of stress, certain people that come and go in my life. Yesterday I thought about you. The one that stand out in a weird way from the rest. The shy person that once said to me he wants to date Chinese girls. Wth, I know. He believes in fate. Certain things about you just made me laugh at times.

Love gives me hope.

2010-08-26T17:54:00.001+08:00

I was at the mall the other day when I saw an old couple sitting together. The man looked over at the woman and said,

"Jane, we did it. We grew old together."

The look in her eyes GMH.

2010-08-25T14:20:00.002+08:00

Reality just gets worst.

Explaining can be such a ass at times.

That's when I wanted to give up. Give up on hope.

Déjà vu

2010-08-24T09:04:00.002+08:00

Déjà vu on dreams.

I wish those dreams will happen in reality but it's impossible.

For the past 3 days they appear in different dreams.

I prefer the recent dream I had. Those smile makes my day but of all people it's you.

I think it's a sign to show that you're still alive. Haha. Maybe.

Knowing.

2010-08-20T15:43:00.002+08:00

I can be oblivious at times but you can't blame me.

What's left is to appreciate.

Temper, either be it or get hurt by it.

Misses

2010-08-18T16:34:00.000+08:00

IMY. I miss those strings.

Work.

2010-07-27T14:26:00.003+08:00

I wanna resigned in 8 Months time.

I miss school. At times only.

I wanna earn $1800 per month. $1200 not enough la.

Re-size my ring. It was suppose to be engagement ring but no birthday gift from mamacat.

Hello kitty yang berbabat. Inside joke.

Atok cat rapist. Inside joke.

Nk puase full this year. Insyaallah.

To Everything.

2010-07-06T17:26:00.002+08:00

To know and be in denial that's me.

I know it's just hard to accept.

I'll leave if it's the best choice I ever make.

To leave with sadness just add to the whole situation.

I'll leave with pride that has been sucked out from all the fights. I'm left with a quarter of pride.

Better to know it was happening.

Blinded by truth.

I'll let truth slip us by.

Never Better.

2010-07-01T11:41:00.002+08:00

Suddenly I felt happy. Never better.

Was thinking bout the date for the special day.

I picked 20 November. It's a Saturday.

Chippy asked me aren't I nervous, well the truth is that no one asked me that before. I was taken a back by it. Heheh. But I think I'll be nervous when the time comes.

I'm not rushing, I found one special one.

To know.

2010-06-30T11:08:00.002+08:00

I smiled when I saw SF. Even though SF doesn't know me.

I'm talking about sunflower. Was rushing to the 2nd last cabin and there stood SF, some sought of pissed off cause they train was full & I too had to wait for the next train.

I kept thinking to my self I think sf will alight at cityhall maybe. IDK.
I alight at Raffles place then change towards Dhoby G.

Hmm. I'm not looking forward for my birthday. I don't know why.

I hate going to weddings but I have to.

Hope to see SF tomorrow.

Had it.

2010-06-28T14:22:00.002+08:00

Spent all the money on stuff that I want.

Bill is accumulating alot. Wtf.

SLA Tee I wanted to buy that for you, but ended I bought another design. Stussy LA.

Pedro Wedge on sale $29.90 Fucking cheap. Bought it & love it.

Vans pumps. I prefer pumps.

Oouh My 19th Is up.

Today

2010-06-23T09:34:00.002+08:00

It takes a picture to tell it all. Thank You.

I've told you many times before, It's a very complicated situation.

I fall out before you do, I was true at that point of time not you.

Avoid.

2010-06-22T17:28:00.003+08:00

Errm. You know I've always thought that it would end good but it didn't.

I just like to say " Hey, I miss ya!" Its weird.

Currently in a state of denial.

Don't you smirk at me.

Life is better.

Thanks.

IMYSF ♥

Remember

2010-06-21T13:23:00.002+08:00

The weird thing is that I was thinking bout my childhood days. K1 & K2. Then you came up. Haha. Its weird because as I remembered I like you when we were young. *trying to remember* My first childhood crush. Aww Lil Noonie had a crush back then. I think he did too.

The point is that I don't wish to erase this memories but I would rather remember some good old memories kept with me as long as I live.

I wish I could but it's not possible.

No sunflower.

2010-06-18T13:04:00.002+08:00

Two days = No sunflower.

Hahah. errr. okay change of topic.

I know ipen might be reading this. hehe. ehem ehem.

So next month is my 19th birthday and Mum got me a present already but baby ask what do I want for my birthday. I seriously have no idea.

Maybe I do. Hehe.

Emerica skate shoe / Vans.

The bigger size polar

& the rest he knows it.

This are all options. I'm not asking for all of it. hahah.

I was thinking what I want to give my bbf for his birthday....Ipen! What you want?

Sunflower.

2010-06-16T11:43:00.002+08:00

Maybe tomorrow. Maybe never.

Sunflower live nearby.

Saw you alighting bus __ this morning.

It's getting awkWEIRD.

Both were being very kaypoh on what the other person was texting about or to who.

I like being strangers with you.

Same timing,weekdays & second last cabin. Around 8:05am

Wednesday

2010-06-16T08:49:00.001+08:00

As usual morning I see come upon to see you. I'll let it be a mystery.

Saw "sunflower" that's cute.

It's still bugging me.

I sound like a stalker.

Stranger

2010-06-11T09:38:00.002+08:00

Stranger. Instant smile.

Mornings were never be the same again if I see You stranger.

All it takes now is to know your name. I want to thank you for making me smile.

Saw You & Made my day.

2010-06-04T09:31:00.002+08:00

First time I saw you, I thought you were cute.

Second time I saw you, You were more cuter.

Petite, around my height. You live clementi area?

I took the train with you. I smile. Friday morning never felt so good.

It bugs me soo much. I wanna know your name. Just your name.

See ya around.

Best friends

2010-05-29T03:48:00.001+08:00

I only have one bff.

He knows everything about me and I trust him.

I miss him.

Thank You for being there for me.

One.

2010-05-20T18:06:00.001+08:00

One.
Just one.

It all changed. I became to listen more to understand.
You said that's what makes me special.
You spoke,listen & love.

101

2010-05-11T13:30:00.002+08:00

Rain drops like music to my ears.

Sun rises to the callings of nature.

Footsteps that marked you and me.

All I could ask for is 1.

Seeking.

2010-05-10T17:14:00.002+08:00

I seek me in you.

Furious with the fact that how idiotic some people can be. Including myself.

At times I feel like canceling the plan is the best way possible.

I hate you right now.

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I see you in my dreams.

I still hate you & please I don't wanna dream of you again today or ever again.

I have cat ears at home.

18 May is next Tuesday , Pitbull make me musically happy can?

Running low on cash.

He said I'm a shopaholic. I deny that.

Future

2010-04-29T14:07:00.002+08:00

I hold no key to the future, no one does. But you are the future to me.

Said things I might regret but at the end of the day love do stands out more than hatred.

I believe in karma.

I believe that mistakes are part of us and we shall learn from it.

Do what you preach.

Death waits for no one so we shall prepare for it.

Whats not to love

2010-04-26T17:56:00.002+08:00

18 May. Pitbull, baby & me.

December in a few months.

Many things to buy. Bills,bills & more bills.

Ily my job. Worldcard singapore is my $$$

Yui is soo cute but stupid at times.

Potpet the cat has been irritating but still Ily

Still planning the Engagement thingy. Mum says " Jangan leceh-leceh , Just exchange rings sudah"

& Oh Can we go on a holiday this year? Pls mum.

Pitbull

2010-04-14T17:53:00.003+08:00

Baby said maybe he can't make it to pitbull's concert. Haish. I want to go with who?

nvm. 18 may will come and we will decide.

I love my cam. Well its not a expensive cam but I love it.

Its not about the cam its how you take a picture.

I'm still growing fat.

Baby, I want new kicks. Etnies rocker can?

3rd on 22nd & 7th on 23rd

I want cat ears.

To wait.

2010-04-12T16:55:00.002+08:00

Its a choice to be made.

Work has been as per normal. I can actually say " I love my job".

I'm running out of idea where to head to next, I meant an outing here in small singapore. I wanna go pulau ubin. I need new pictures to be up.

More outing = more photo session

Can buy me a CANON DSLR on 22 july? (hopes baby read this hahah)

In love with Lecia.

Been eating out lately = getting fatter.

Baby bought a red skate scooter. Jom! scoot scoot again!

Why you spoil me soo much?? baby why??

To baby: save $$$ then go get married. baby old aldy!

6 years apart make a difference by number.

Pass your car license,buy a car and ajak I go jalan-jalan!

Lastly,

Can you transform to be a cat?

Fact.

2010-03-31T11:17:00.002+08:00

To think back its just mere fraction of my life. The flower that blooms and dies on the spot. To breath the same air as yours I would think twice about it. I'm glad to move on and away but i pity the senseless being of you. Yes you.

2010-03-22T15:53:00.002+08:00

2nd - Thks M

21st march - Worst sunday ever.

Sister - Love her no matter what. That face I'll remember.

Mum - "Why didn't you tell me?" Cause I don't have the right to it. Sorry mum. Ask her.

Potpet - Wakes me up everyday except sundays.

I wanna shop. Pay day, must wait.

2010-02-22T11:49:00.001+08:00

I miss the _____ .

Haish. Fbby is loved and we grow fat together.

In one day we had pasta mania and popeyes but macd breakfast the next day.

FAT! Howells I'm happy and that's all that matters now.

Left.

2010-02-18T13:27:00.002+08:00

I left. You came. We're friends. You had her. Strikes a lil bit of jealousy. I'm Kindda lost.

*Yes I'm jealous.

By the way I miss you.

Now a days I'm stress free and living a healthy lifestyle.

But..

Busy Bee

2010-02-05T14:05:00.000+08:00

February

- NEW WORK.

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Anti-social

2010-01-28T22:35:00.003+08:00

Rumours? Believe or Just don't hear about it.

Sorry to avoid you. But it's a lil hard at the moment.

Sunday, I promise on that.

Love never dies. I believe in "suck ballz man"

2010-01-28T15:57:00.003+08:00

Friday? Make me wanna change my mind. Seriously.

My face has been behaving well. After forking out a splashy amount for "Vichy".

Smooth let go. I had to lie to myself for that.

Cute to the fact that typical people only supports the much popular side of life. The bf, petite, fat and gay boy. Side lines is their entourage of useless people.

Mr High-end

2010-01-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

Terima Kasih.

Meet ya on friday then.

In denial

2010-01-26T18:29:00.002+08:00

I dont get it why people just can't mind their own business of others. We all have lifes of our own but this group of bicthes just can't seem to shut their mouth up. Tsk tsk tsk. Dissapointed as a human being to the fact that they too have their own "DRAMA" in their own life. GET A GRIP. Or just grip your bf balls.

Lets play some games

2010-01-26T10:10:00.001+08:00

Ate a feast and played in your own game bitch. Meow meow. King has been throwned away. What to do. Father is pissed at the fact that he pee at neighbour's pot and stuff. Gonna miss my gay cat.

Hey that is the slut.

2010-01-24T19:57:00.002+08:00

HEY WORLD. We all get it that bitches do exist everywhere we go. I cant deny the fact that I can be a hot topic for them. Tsk tsk. Common bitches. Got no life yea? I thought you guys are all clever young adults. See. People hail to you guys right. Hail my ass. I expect better from you guys. More FIERCE than this. I really want to see what you've got. Flaunt all the cash you want. But flaunt some action, yea if you got some action, show me baby.

Sisters do know how to have fun!

2010-01-22T12:25:00.004+08:00

So who wants some?

Ladies Night

That's Muhammad

After effect.

Trying our best to smile and stand. Both of us was "terhuyung-hayang"

Pictures were from wednesday night. Fun! Mamat joined us after work and we hang out till 7 plus. Thursday night we went again. Me, sis and mamat. No pics was taken but I was in my worst state ever. Like usual mamat was there to help me whenever I fall or talk crap. 3 jugs of redbull vodka and 1 jug ribena vodka. Maner tidak. Major highnest la jadi nye. Ape lagi when hit the dance floor, dance like theres no tomorrow.

The after effect. Hangover.

:) Met annis and syirah too. Sorry annis, you had to see me like that.

When Noonie gets mad.

2010-01-20T13:58:00.002+08:00

My face. -_-"

Yesterday was a very dramatic day. I felt like I was watching a drama series. But it was in live mode. 2 over 1 thing. Go figure. There was a lot of physical contact but not in a good way. I had my time. 1 punch hits on his chin and another his left face. I told you don't trigger me by pushing me away like that. I'm still mad at him. I have the right to be mad. I told you it's between me and you not including him. Urgh. I regret that I wore skirt at that point of time. I just wanted to hit your balls. You had your fair share of pushing me and I had my time to punch your face.

I hate you when that happens. I told you to be a friend but now it's like you want to be my enemy. To Tiddy.

Dearest People.

2010-01-20T13:42:00.002+08:00

Its like every post theres a picture of me. Heh.
The Interns

So this is the people I've been working with for the past 1 yr.

So monday was a sad day, We had to say farewell to income since our contract ended. Met with my bby girls after work since they gave us like half day work leave. We when sheesha and had tons of fun. Pictures will be uploaded n fb.

Now I'm jobless and it suck.

Danny.

2010-01-17T01:26:00.003+08:00

Rock out, danny.

It was kindda hard to take a picture of him. But this is all i could get when the band is performing.

If only you read my blog, I would say " Your performance was great."

The other thing that sets me off a little is that I understand your situation. All I asked is a simple smile and greet.

Ouh well. It's okay. I'm just glad you replied my text msg. See you soon. I'll hope on that.

As i wished

2010-01-17T01:06:00.004+08:00

After a tiring day of photography a self shot of myself.

Sis and her dude

Ika and me

Mosh pit.

Ika and bofy plus the bandmate.

Started off with photograph session by myself. Then met my sis and her dude. At 6 plus head to town to meet ika and her friend. Lastly to lavender for a gig. Truth is I just go there to see you perform. Yea you. That dude with the dimples.

Fiery Fun Saturday.

2010-01-10T15:31:00.001+08:00

Sheesha and movie. Fun.

He is fat.

2010-01-09T05:07:00.003+08:00

Danny.

This dude got distracted easily. Windy, cold and random morning.

Plans for later is sheesha and movie.

Unpredictable.

2010-01-07T12:12:00.003+08:00

Craving for mcspicy. This picture was taken like 1 yr ago.

He is the stereotyped person. He just didn't realise that.

Far away for drama and society, sickness creeps in instantly. Vomiting two straights days. Fever and spinning headache.

Sherlock holmes was great. Catched the movie yesterday at jp. As usual, some people is always late. Hahaha. Kidding kay. Head to block after that. Well my visit there was unexpected. They were shocked to see me there. Hahaha. Any ways, today is a sickly day. Heading to polyclinic in a while.

Didn't I told you to suck balls?

Heavy price

2010-01-06T00:20:00.001+08:00

A pinch from the past do hurt. So, watch out for those bitches.

Massive blowout.

2010-01-04T01:05:00.003+08:00

Sleep like a baby much?

I know I should be asleep by now as I'm working. Its MONDAY! monday blues will hit me later in the office with much happiness to continue my blessing work.

Major massive blowout just happened a few hours ago. Very the lazy to elaborate more but a tiny peek is that if you gonna take your words back might as well don't say it in the first place. Save a few seconds in this world to do good deed. Yar right. Suck ballz man. Don't mind my very rude attitude. I need a vacaton which consist me to go out and have some splash of a fun.

Since the kids are heading back to school, I might as well planned to head to sentosa and have a dip. Sentosa was packed during the hols so I maybe going on a weekday. Tuesday maybe. Its my day off.

Pay day is coming. So that means settle bills,moderm,give some $ to mum and the rest is mine to spent. So wanna hit the clubs maybe? 13 jan is the date. sis told me we heading to dbl o. saya ok go aja. I just wanna let loose with style no drama mama. Pester gemok to tag along and be my dance partner. haha. Just hope he don't get drunk. See be like me, I don't drink.

happy new year? -_-"

2010-01-02T20:05:00.002+08:00

This was taken like a year ago. See my hair. A big " No No" for this year.

So, here goes. Gemok! happy 1 yr and 3 months being together. Gemok is off to the skate park with his gay buddies and i'm at home on a saturday. haish.
Peace. Botanics.Fckinhotweather.New yr eve.

That's Hawe. This picture was taken before all the drama started.

Greetings. I'm still feel like 2009 rather then 2010. 2 more weeks at ntuc income and i'm taking a break if they don't offer to extend my contract.

How did you guys celebrate your new year? At some point that day when the drama started, I wish i was at home with my two kittys watching tv. I really wish I wasn't there. Drama strama. Yadayadayada. I didn't even had a proper countdown. Head back to bb and slept at his hse. Fckin tired that day. Well no one really cared that I work and had only a few hours of rest.

Fckedup.

I finish reading the trilogy of laksmana sunan. I really wish I had a boyfriend like him. Taat kepade yg maha esah. Okay, i know it sounded strange and mcm phm coming from me but ramlee awang murhid's books are what i call "my life calling". Gemok will be like "yeah right" to me if he reads this but who cares. Mum always had faith in me rather then those people out there. Everytime i read a book from ramlee i feel ashamed in a sense that org lalai hidup dalam dunia ini. Aku mengaku that i do neglect him in this world. I know if gemok or anyone else don't care or says bad things about me and my past, I feel damned by them but i still have mum to turn to. She has always been an encouraging support to me. Giving me answers which I never knew.

I felt damned by you. You that I called my everything. But you said " I don't care what you want to do any more". And so I shall do things at my own sweet time. I know she was better, prettier, have a more sense of respect to you but I'm me not her.

Now I can officially say, I'm ready for 2010. Ready to end my TEEN years with a little blast of my own and of cause everything I do mesti direstui oleh my mum. She said " syura kau masih muda and mak tk nk pasal berkwn(relationship) kau tk dapat rasa zaman remaja kau, tu pasal kwn berpada-pada".

That's why I feel like a 30 yr old stuck at home wife.

Flower Lady

2009-12-24T23:56:00.002+08:00

Busuk was meowing in front of the mirror. Bel/cute nye kucing.

Only 2 and half working days these week and it feels like heaven. I bet heaven smells nice but being at work there's many smells. Especially panimalar. Damn you women. I think she goes to work without bathing. Cause her breath stinks and so is her overpowering b.0. Seriously, I can faint siting beside her 4 days per week. But what to do tawakal ajer la. But sometimes I do my work far away from her. Panimalar is a very slow and lazy women. All the artwork of the docs has been passed to me to do. PEMALAS NYE KELING. sheesh. Geram jer.

Xmas is a expensive holiday and I fucking hate it. Broke and expect me to get a nice gift. A holiday which I don't even celebrate. Burning anger for awhile just now.

Should I buy a a new curling tong or flat iron?

I'm bored with my hair when it's flat and lifeless. Choping off to bangs maybe. My shopping list has been on going but only a few has been strike off like bill and working shoes. Next pay I was go 313 to check out F21. Seriously, I need a new hair band again. Heheh

Ouh ya, I passed with a 1.0 GPA. Pathetic? I know. I just wanna graduate that's all. Next year? work? school? both?

happy fcking good xmas to all

Ever Lasting

2009-12-20T16:51:00.002+08:00

Constipated much? Hahah

Showing some love bebeh

Hawe and me.

This week has been tiring much with hanging out and plans for next year and so on. Friday headed to tiddy hse and by the time i came there he was still asleep sungguh macam cat betol la dek nie. heheh. Had to wake him up and slack around his house ate and night time he suggested to his dad to go to mustafa but ended up bought just a jacket. It was around 5 am plus in the morning that i reached home from mustafa. Teros hit the bed and slept till 1pm plus. Siap2 and go tiddy house again and this time he wokeup already but was otp with a gf of his. Never seen the girl before. nvm. Yadayadayada. Much anger here and there train to city hall and ate at marin kfc. walk around and went home. simple weekend outing. Not much fuss.

Sunday morning rain is falling~

I rearrange my bedroom sungguh memenatkn but nvm it's a mess and needs a cleaningup session. tiddy had soccer in the morning and not meeting him today. Guess i'm just gonna be lazing around the house.

Love always

2009-12-15T20:54:00.003+08:00

Bb skate park
Short hair
The day before he cuts his hair.

Greetings. Lets start with some hasty remarks from people who cant simply stay away from some juicy news. Yada yada yada. Would'nt go much into it. Let's just stay what we say here in our life will either do good or bad in the after life. At times it's better to shut it up and except some facts are either true or even lies. I didnt turn up for my interview with shangri la today. I wanted a guest relation officer beh they offer waitress. My certs will go to waste if I take up this offer. Wasted. Been meeting tiddy for the past one week. trying to build up what I left laying around. Been trying to settle some uncertain problems with tiddy. Remarks to yourself but I do love him like i used to. It's still the same baby. It ain't gonna change this tme around. I keep my own words to myself it's like a promse to myself. For my own good. Tiddy is laughing now while reading part of my post and now saying about my face structure part of it like mama and part of it like dad. Sheesh tiddy. Nvm.

I say one word, "Love"

Believe it wholeheartedly not with a half heart.

FYI, it has always been you.♥