What makes me do what I did is because of the unbearable pain that has caused me to hurt you in a way that I couldn't simply define it. I have gone from being this and to that and now back to where I am suppose to be. At the right path and the right mindset. I thank you enough that you were there to bring me back to life again and over again. I was unable to have done that without you. The secret stories that I have told you about. The pain, mostly mentally and emotionally. Best kept between me and my own soul. Be my sun that rises in the morning and stars that appear when night falls. I want my own self to emerge strong like never before. Dear God, do give me strength on this Holy month. Amin.